back in hollywood today

20x20surgery @ 2007-05-30T10:55:00

2007-05-30T09:56:25Z

WTF WARRIORS OF INNOCENCE? GO WARRIOR OFF SOMEWHERE YOU'RE WANTED.

Yes, that's not articulate but it's adaquate. Which I can't spell.

20x20surgery @ 2007-04-28T18:36:00

2007-04-28T18:37:09Z

Quick update from GIAN:

- The Used hold motherfucking huge grudges, I stil don't like the new drummer and they were fucking amazing.

- Ville Valo was completely fucked & in need of affection.

- The Zico Chain are still awesome and the sweetest guys ever. Mainstage Download!

- Senses Fail.... Buddy fell on my head almost 2 years ago.

- Motion City Soundtrack cheered me uppp. Yay!

- NFG are rather good to dance to, if a little nasely.

I can't wait for BN. And AFI. Were gonna stalk Smith tomorrow. For the love of bald men in hats!

Kay pure getting danced on top of now...

Byeeeee xxx

20x20surgery @ 2007-04-26T08:18:00

2007-04-26T07:18:42Z

Lol at Sam & Reece giving head to each other in my bedroom. My mum is now calling my room a whore house but I think she was only joking.

Anyway, yeah. I'm not doing GIAN Birmingham now, I'm doing London. This means sacrificng the Pink Spiders so Ill just follow them around the country whenever they come. This way I can meet Bekah & see Kay & Zoe too. Yay.

Trying to type on a sk and stay balanced while standing on a speeding bus is very difficult.

Bye now, lolz.

xxx

20x20surgery @ 2007-01-23T22:10:00

2007-01-23T22:22:06Z

So me & Amy are becoming Mormons. We have it all planned. Really good innocent Mormons. Except you know, Mormons who drink & smoke & abuse the properties of coffee. It shall be glorious. We can rape missionaries and the like.

In other news? Agnes lives in this boiler room-type place in school. You haveta walk down some stone stairs and then you're like.. below yard level and the wind doesn't get to you, but Agnes threatens you from behind her salmon pink door... Scary shit, honestly.

Anything else? Oh yes! Finally, my Chemistry coursework seems to be in full working order! Just got to copy up a table, make a graph and analyse some results [the higher the temperature the quicker the cross dissappears blah blah blah] and I'm good to go.

Umm! Oh yeah, me & Amy get to three fests! Warped, Download and GIAN! And we get to stay in hotels for all of them! Good shit much? Get to go to America for Warped and everything! You have no idea how squealy that all makes me.

I wanna go out with my camera some place again. I want it to snow really, so I can be like HAI, LOOK PRETTY COLD WEATHER.

I've been listening to Mest & Good Charlotte none stop today. All the amazing cds I own and I totally pull out the pop punk. What can ya do? Good times, good times.

LIVERPOOL'S MORMON STATUE FTW > YOUR MUM.

Umm... my lack of RP lately is driving me bonkers. But I have started dolling again.

Bored now xxx

20x20surgery @ 2007-01-14T22:43:00

2007-01-14T23:32:39Z

So as Zoe came over for the weekend I decided to do something interesting with her on the last day & so myself, her, Reece the Fagend and Beau the legend absconded to Sefton. It was most excellenté times! And I took my camera out of the street for the first time, haha!

Firstly, I'll introduce the cru;

& then in no particular order, captions optional;

That sign that explains why sefton park is no longer home to a bird collection. Yah.

Completely accidental but the emo in me likes it.

Wanna know the scary thing? There's more to update with tommorow =].

But yeah, the weekend was lovely and snuggly. My friends are blates amazing. The park is too. Seeing Fizzy was wonderful as per usual, even if it was only for a few hours in the evening. School tommorow but I don't even mind =].

xx

20x20surgery @ 2007-01-01T00:06:00

2007-01-01T00:07:34Z

HAPPTY NBEW YEARRTTTT¬!!!

I AM OPFCOIUSRE A BUT DRUNHK BUYT IYTS OKAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!

HIPOE EVERYINE HAVEING A GPOOD ONE AND HOPE 07 IS TEH BERST FOR YOYUR!!!!!

20 things you probably didn't know about me.

2006-12-23T00:15:15Z

o1. I write almost everything (whether it be a story, an lj entry or a private diary entry) with someone in particular in mind. I don't have much to do with this person, and they probably never take time out to read any of those things, but I'd like to think that if they did they'd agree with something or other that I'd written.

o2. Sometimes I create whole conversations in my head, and these conversations don't always involve me- sometimes they're between American business men who may not even exist. Sometimes they sound almost Shakespearian.

o3. I spend a lot of time laying in my bed at 3am wishing that I wasn't laying there alone. Matt Shadows is always one of my first choices for who should be with me but I only have a single bed so one of us would be squished.

o4. I judge people continually- on what they're wearing, what they read, how they write/speak, how the look generally, what music they enjoy etc. I realise that people probably do the same to me and so I feel no guilt about how bitchy I can be.

o5. I list almost everyone know within my best friends list, but if I am 100% honest, Amy is the best friend I have ever had, and I think she knows that. Or at least, I hope she does.

o6. I still have re-occuring thoughts about self-injury, but I am too lazy to act on them.

o7. Every single time I read OOTP I cry when Sirius dies. I am aware of how much of a dork this makes me, but then I also visit mugglenet.com rather often and have actual Harry Potter theories, so the crying at a death takes a back seat on the loser scale.

o8. I honest to God love Aiden. And yet- I can pinpoint every single reason why people hate them, the first point being their not so good music.

o9. When I was laying in my tent in the pitch black at Download, hearing all the old & hairy men around the campsite growling about how much they'd like to hurt an emo, I was scared as shit. However, I do miss wandering around in the night, inhaling weed fumes and puking up pure Jagermeister in the disgusting bathroom stalls.

10. Sometimes I look into the mirror and think that, overall, I'm not that ugly. But then I feel like an idiot, because I am.

11. I totally fear never being loved, never losing my virginity and never having a relationship with another person ever- currently, that seems extreme, but sometimes that feels as though it's a definite given.

12. People who can not spell 'definite' make me want to gouge my own eyes out with a spoon. Just remeber 'finite' people, or at least, finite being linked to definite makes perfect sense to me.

13. I cry when people go offline right in the middle of a really good role play scene.

14. I usually put off reading magazine interviews with my favourite bands and I'm never really sure why- in case it shows them in a bad light? In case they say something irrational and annoying? I don't know.

15. I have a scarily violent streak. Mostly it just makes me scream angrily at unecersary moments, but sometimes I have the most vivid visions of crushing peoples ribcages and I actually hear the cracking.

16. The idea of violent sex with a number of men is rather appealing. But they'd have to be generally possesive and occasionally affectionate, also.

17. Everytime I eat chicken I feel a sickening guilt, but I really enjoy the taste.

18. I don't think I'll ever let go of My Chemical Romance- no matter what they do, they'll always mean something to me.

19. I can't explain exactly why I hate FOB, or rather, Pete Wentz- but, my God, the hate is fierce.

20. I keep inviting people to NJ with me and Amy, but honestly- I just want it to be us [I would invite Annie honestly, but I know that she would not be allowed].

My, aren't I uninteresting.

20x20surgery @ 2006-12-10T16:51:00

2006-12-10T16:51:09Z

When I woke up this morning my mum had decorated the house. It gives me that warm happy feeling inside, thus I = loser. I wanna do my own room now but we'll haveta see if Argos get the tree I want back in stock =[ If not it'll be muchos crap... might haveta go to something like £ Stretcher, lmao.

Pls exuse the quality, I don't get my good camera until Christmas day, haha. Oh, and they're all a bit blurry because my camera sucks without flash but with flash the Christmas tree lost it's charm.

Our angel- she's an antique and adorable.

Literal fairy lights.

Because I'm actually the only atheist in my house.

Our Santa ragdoll.

The train. I love the train.

The train again =].

Christmas corner!

Christmas corner again! =]

The first every christmas decoration my parents bought as a couple.

Every year I choose a new decoration for the three- this year I bought a little mini cake stand. Cus it's a bit good, like.

Christmas treeee again!

And last but not least, our window, just cos I though it looked pretty even if it is a bit minimalist.

*is all happy and smiley and warm and lame*

20x20surgery @ 2006-11-29T22:12:00

2006-11-29T22:12:20Z

Dear MCR Fangirls,

I heard grips are real cool. GET ONE.

xxx

20x20surgery @ 2006-11-19T19:45:00

2006-11-19T19:45:57Z

I swear, at some point I'll update about TOC, MCR [which I actually enjoyed for once] and Bullet number 1, but until then;

Please friend me new writing journal- really, since I like write everything now- from Japanese folk, to Finnish folk to..like, get this, girls! So, pls.

Thanks like.

<333

Hiyer!

2006-09-28T22:43:35Z

I have a found a plus side to The Black Parade [yes, I was getting desperate]... IT TOTALLY MAKES ME APPRECIATE THREE CHEERS AGAIN.

I know, I know, caps, but really, that makes me so happy. I started to lose interest in that album but now it's a nice little reminder that somewhere beneath the brass buckles and termianlly ill patient!hair there's talent and music I adore and will always adore.

And tommorow is my birthday party!

Life is grand. =]

20x20surgery @ 2006-09-28T19:07:00

2006-09-28T18:19:09Z

Today, for the first time in my life, I painted real walls with real emulsion paint. I almost fell of a two rung stepladder in the process, and spent 30% rubbing off what I'd already slapped on with the roller, but the paint colour is the exact shade of strawberry ice cream & it's grand. I'm so excited about getting my bedroom finished but it's gonna take a while. I kind of didn't think this through... the design is a lot of work for my Mum. And for me. I'm still sleeping on a mattress in the living room, ugh.

My Mum still has to clean up downstairs [so there's room for us to party!] and then we get to make my cake! You know the sort where the cake is a skirt with a Barbie poking out of the top? Oh yes! Plus it's chocolate because the only cake I like is chocolate! How awesome. And lame. Very lame, but what're you gonna do, eh eh?

Party tommorow- eight days after my birthday! Lmao! I don't know what to wear because I totally haven't had a chance to go shopping so I'll have to make something wonderful out of shit I already own. I should've made it a scene fancy dress party! Oh..oh, wait...yeah, I forgot who my friends are. There shall be skinny jeans-a-plenty already. And alcohol. And lesbianism [makes a mental note to keep the jam away from beau&maeve]. I'm so excited. Better all go well otherwise I'm running away to wherever-Troy-may-currently-reside with my Amy-chan.

Oh oh oh, and then on the Saturday Beau and moi are off to The Misfits! Oh yes! The Misfits...again! Jerry Only pwns my Nan. -does a happy dance-

Other good shit? Ah yes! The RITFJ Hello Kitty necklace raffe only costing £.055 to enter! =]

I fail though, because I'm getting Amazon to email when TBP cd special edition becomes available. When it um...sucks infinitely I'll sell it on ebay or something. O.o

Off to help my Mum and wigglewiggle to The Academy Is. Oh. And you know, be spastically hyper.

<333

20x20surgery @ 2006-08-30T19:59:00

2006-08-30T19:00:11Z

It sucks when you ring your mum and her mobile rings from inside the bag that's the bag she didn't take out.

BASTARD.

ahahahahahahha.

2006-08-30T15:29:47Z

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20x20surgery @ 2006-08-12T16:09:00

2006-08-12T15:26:48Z

I tried to count up all of the gigs I've been to. It was really really really fucking hard. Lmao. I don't think I got them all but the roundabout number of gigs I've been to is about 74 though my list isn't perfect and I'm almost certain that I've missed some off at some point but really my brain isn't working enough for me to fix it.

And then, comming up I have;

Taking Back Sunday x 1/2 - Instore and then maybe the gig in the evening.
My Chemical Romance x 1- The Palais
Leeds including- Bullet For My Valentine, TBS, MCR, Dresden Dolls, Placebo, Slayer
Brand New x 1- London
Victory Tour x 2- Liveprool and Manchester
AFI x 2- Manchester and Nottingham
Rancid x 1- Manchester
A7X x 1- Manchester
Bullet & Bleeding Through & As I Lay Dying x 2- Manchester and Liverpool

So that's about 11/12 coming up, which will bring my total to 85/6 by the end of November.

Okay, okay, I know it's not as many as some people but I've only been doing proper gigs for the past 2 years and I am happy and somewhat surpised. =D

Flickr

2006-08-09T10:20:24Z

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

20x20surgery @ 2006-07-04T23:03:00

2006-07-04T22:22:33Z

This heat is unbearable; I feel as though I'm slowly cooking from the inside out. My organs now resemble tomota paste and stringy cheese on a burnt pizza; and by tommorow my skin'll be the crust. Or, I'll have melted in a strange goo like substanc. Either way- PLEASE GOD, LET IT RAIN. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't locked up in school doing never ending maths & science and coursework when I can barely find the energy to a) keep my eyes open or b) move my hand in a way that enables me to write anything that the teacher could decipher.

On a happier note, I WISH I could keep the things I bought Beau for her birthday. These things may or may not include a Fairytale Dora The Explorer doll... >.>

Talking of Dora The Explorer, my new fag left today for a 5-day holiday in Teeh Beach [the connection may not be obvious, but damn it's there]. I have no idea where Teeh Beach is, but I do know that I'm missing Dolan as if he were a limb already. He's the only American I know who throws the five hour time difference to the wind; he's seemingly on whenever I need him. Unless of course he's at a beacch. And, and he can't swim, thus forcing me into the belief that HE'S GOING TO DROWN, AND HELL, WHAT WILL I DO THEN? Or get raped by Ren.. either way.

My extensions came loose already so I'm going to the hair dressers house tommorow. She is a chav, but there is something awfully attractive about her.

Well, that's about it folks. Exciting life I le- oh wait! My mum spent £80.98 on me today, and we only bought what? An eyeliner, an eyeliner brush, false nails and mascara. MADNESS.

1) Bold what is true about you.
2) Italicize what you wish was true about you.
3) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.
4) Tag five LJ friends: whomsoever wishes

* I miss somebody right now.
* I don't watch much TV these days.
* I own lots of books.
* I wear glasses or contact lenses.
* I love to play video games.
* I've tried marijuana.
* I've watched porn movies.
* I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
* I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
* I curse sometimes.
* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
* I have broken someone's bones.
* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
* I hate the rain.
* I'm paranoid at times.
* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
* I need/want money right now.
* I love sushi.
* I talk really, really fast.
* I have fresh breath in the morning.
* I have long hair.
* I have lost money in Las Vegas.
* I have at least one sibling.
* I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
* I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
* I like the way that I look.
* I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
* I am usually pessimistic.
* I have a lot of mood swings.
* I think prostitution should be legalized.
* I slept with a roommate.
* I have a hidden talent.
* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
* I have a lot of friends.
* I have pecked someone of the same sex.
* I enjoy talking on the phone.
* I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
* I love to shop and/or window shop.
* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
* I have a mobile phone.
* I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
* I've rejected someone before.
* I currently like/love someone.
* I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
* I want to have children in the future.
* I have changed a diaper before.
* I've called the cops on a friend before.
* I'm not allergic to anything.
* I have a lot to learn.
* I am shy around the opposite sex.
* I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
* I have at least 5 away messages saved.
* I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
* I own the "South Park" movie.
* I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
* I enjoy some country music.
* I would die for my best friends.
* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.
* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
* I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
* I have dated a close friend's ex.
* I am happy at this moment.
* I'm obsessed with guys.
* Democrat.
* Republican.
* I don't even know what I am.
* I am punk rockish.
* I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
* I study for tests most of the time.
* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
* I can work on a car.
* I love my job(s).
* I am comfortable with who I am right now.
* I have more than just my ears pierced.
* I walk barefoot wherever I can.
* I have jumped off a bridge.
* I love sea turtles.
* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
* I am proficient on a musical instrument.
* I hate office jobs.
* I went to college out of state.
* I am adopted.
* I am a pyro.
* I have thrown up from crying too much.
* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
* I fall for the worst people.
* I adore bright colours.
* I usually like covers better than originals.
* I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.
* I can pick up things with my toes.
* I can't whistle.
* I have ridden/owned a horse.
* I still have every journal I've ever written in.
* I talk in my sleep.
* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
* I wear a toe ring.
* I have a tattoo.
* I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
* I am a caffeine junkie.
* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.
* If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
* I'm an artist.
* I am ambidextrous.
* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.
* If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.
* I have terrible teeth.
* I hate my toes.
* I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.
* I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
* I have lived in either three different states or countries.
* I am extremely flexible.
* I love hugs more than kisses.
* I want to own my own business.
* I smoke.
* I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
* Nobody has ever said I'm normal.
* Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.
* I am proficient in the use of many types firearms and combat weapons.
* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.
* I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.
* I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
* I have played strip poker with someone else before.
* I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.
* I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
* I can't stand being alone.
* I have at least one obsession at any given time.
* I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.
* I'm a judgmental asshole.
* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
* I have travelled on more than one continent.
* I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.
* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
* I am a Libertarian.
* I can speak more than one language.
* I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
* I would rather read than watch TV.
* I like reading fact more than fiction.
* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
* I have no piercings.
* I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.
* I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
* I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.
* I've been married and am now divorced.
* There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.
* I like most animals better than most people.
* I own a collection of retro games consoles.
* The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.
* I have hit someone with a dead fish. .
* I am compulsively honest.
* I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.
* I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
* I have gone from wishing I was a boy to revelling in being a girl to feeling like a boy again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.
* I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.
* I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
* I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.
* I dislike milk.
* I obsessively wash my hands.
* I always carry something significant around with me.
* Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.
* I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
* Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.
* I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.
* I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
* I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.
* Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.
* I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
* I do not 'get' most comedy acts.
* I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.
* I don't like to chew gum.
* I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.
* I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.
* I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
* I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.
* I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.
* I love to sing.
* I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.
* I have a custom-built computer.
* I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
* I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.
* I've gone skinny-dipping.
* I've performed in three plays
* I enjoy burritos.
* I'm Irish and loving it.
* I have a thing for redheads.
* I am a twin!
* Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.
* Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
* I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.
* I sleep more than 12 hours a day.
* I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
* I need more time to myself.
* I wish I was more open-minded.
* I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
* I download songs from the internet.
* I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.
* I say random things to freak people out.
* I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.
* I love playing Truth or Dare.
* I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
* Music helps me remember that I am not alone.
* Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems
* I think this survey is particularly long.
* I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.
* I can only hate someone that I love.
*I love sex dreams

IN-CEST, IN HIS BUM, TROYYY FUUUCKS JAKE.

2006-06-12T09:29:36Z

1. Name:
2. Birthday:
3. Place of residence:
4. What makes you happy:
5. What are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. Do you read my lj:
7. If you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. Favourite place to be:
11. Favourite lyric:
12. Best time of the year:
13. Do you remember when we met?
14. Have I been a good friend to you?
15. Tell me something you've never told me before.

PLUS

1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you.
4. Post a picture you (if possible):

20x20surgery @ 2006-05-24T14:59:00

2006-05-24T14:00:42Z

20x20surgery @ 2006-05-11T20:21:00

2006-05-11T19:21:19Z

20x20surgery @ 2006-05-06T10:56:00

2006-05-06T09:58:35Z

_{I was cherry_zombie, I am now 20x20surgery. Kay? Kay}.

20x20surgery @ 2006-02-24T12:21:00

2006-02-24T12:29:22Z

I feel so ill. Shaky and achy and ready to vomit. Pleasant of course.

Otherwise... well, I got my eyebrows waxed. I no longer look like a yeti which is good to know.

I feel sad though, pathetically sad in a teenage angsty type way when all I really need is some good porn and a wack upside the head to set things right. I'm such a whiney emo teenager and it's infinitely annoying. It doesnt help that I feel sick, I guess. Might just go and so some more Visual make up and squee from the compliments I recieve.

My friends pretty much suck really... Well, Amy, who is completely incapabable of replying to a text. Or twenty. Well, no, Amy doesn't suck at all, but I've gotten really close to her recently and so then not to see her almost 2 weeks (and it could be 4) is super annoying and saddening. Not that I wasnt always close to her, but there's something about being very drunk and very unhinged in a hotel room with a kettle and an unbiteable biscuit that brings people closer, I'd presume. Now I miss the acousticness Hails seeing Snakebites drinking Troy molesting happenings of that weekend.

I'm gonna make a start on Roz's birthday fic.. as I'm planning something chaptered and long and perfectly perfect.

I'm so sleepy though.

God, I might as well just re-name this thing 'Rae's infintitely annoying, bloody whine emo journal for fucking ranting and whining in when people just want her to shut up, fucking hell!'. Lol.

xxx

20x20surgery @ 2006-02-16T16:29:00

2006-02-16T16:31:48Z

So basically, I'm really ill. Off school since Tuesday, gonna be off tommorow too. Pfft, I miss my friends.

I dont have the skills right now to make myself a new layout and it's REALLY annoying me.

I'm so bored.

I might just go draw/die.

This was such a pointless update, I might shoot myself just to create some excitement in Rae!land.

xxx

20x20surgery @ 2006-01-01T03:01:00

2006-01-01T03:02:29Z

*past, present, future and randomness and more*
Start Time::	02:44
PAST
First grade teacher's name::	Mrs Maclevean
Last word you said::	shit!
Last song you sang:	Madonna- Material Girl
Last thing you laughed at::	Me spraying myself with febreeze to rid the scent of fag.
Last time you cried::	Ugh..I dont remember.
PRESENT
What's in your cd player?:	Kelly Clarkson (hahaha)
What color socks are you wearing?:	Im bare foot!
What's under your bed?:	Ancient barbies & crap.
What time did you wake up today?:	9:15 =0
Current
Current hair::	Black and tousled and still nice from this morning.
Current clothes::	Blue pjs with cherries and watermelons are which are like 10 x too big.
Current annoyance::	Boredom.
Current smell::	Fags/air freshener/cheese & onion crips/alcohol
Current longing::	For..someone to talk to.
Current desktop picture::	A random model whose name I forget but he is divive.
Current favorite music artist::	Um...shrug I dont have a current favourite...?
Current book::	Harry Potter series! Im back on the HP hype.
Current worry::	This smoking thing...:s
Current hate::	Um..boredom?
Story behind your username::	Zombie..inspired by the Horrorpops, Cherry, cos it's my thing. Oh goshdarn, exciting.
Current favorite article of clothing::	Um? My leggins. Or denim skirt.
Randomness
Favorite physical feature on a girl?:	Eyes, stomach..arse...hair.
Line from the last thing you wrote to someone::	yaaaay.
I am happiest when::	I'm with my friends or at a gig.
I feel lonely when::	It's 2:49 and I'm sobering up and alone.
Favorite authors::	J.K.Rowling, J.T. Leroy, Chuck Palhniuk
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?:	Um..Liverpool ;)
Famous person you have met::	Jeph Howard, Bob Bryar, Frank Iero, Gerard Way, Emanuel dudes, Horrorpops...some other people maybe at some point.
Do you have any regrets?:	OH GOD YES.
Sex or love::	..both!
Favorite coffee::	yuck!
Favorite smell::	gig smell.
What makes you mad?:	people who...who..I dont know. People who only have friends who they met on Myspace.
Favorite way to waste time::	RP.
What is your best quality?:	I'm...very generous with my mum's money?
Are in currently in love/lust?:	Um...does Rabastan Lestrange count?
What's the craziest thing you have ever done?:	I have't done anything overly crazy.
Any bad habits?:	Smoking (?), nail biting, bitching, swearing.
Do you find it hard to trust people?:	Depends on my opinion of the person.
Last thing you bought yourself::	harry potter top trump cards.
Bath or shower?:	um..bath. with bath bombs.
Favorite season::	Summer.
Favorite color::	Pink.
Favorite flavor::	um...strawberry?
Favorite time of day::	Night time.
Gold or silver?:	White gold.
Any secret crushes?:	Not really.
FASHION
Do you wear a watch?:	I got a nice ruby one for Christmas =)
Favorite stores::	Topshop, MAC, The Bead Shop, Accesorize, Selfridges, Dorothy Perkins, Schu.
How big is your closet?:	welll...some of my clothes are in my Mum's wardrobe? I dont know if that if desribes the size of my clothes collection or my wardrobe though.
Ever spend more then $200 in a store?:	Many times.
Friends
Do your friends know everything about you?:	Yes. Well, my best friends do. Even my ickyickyicky odd perverse fetishes, because 9/10, they share the fetish (Fizzy, Beau & Ami <333)
What do they tend to be like?:	Bouncy, childish, emo, sweet, snuggly, perverse.
Can you count on them?:	I hope so.
Can they count on you?:	Usually.
Last:
book you read::	Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince (for the 5th time?)
last movie you saw::	Um... some ghetto beauty shop thing..it was cute.
movie you saw on the big screen::	I dont remember?
show you watched on tv::	Some thing about best screen kisses. SETH & SUMMER! <3
song you heard::	dont remember...
thing you had to drink::	I tried mizing Budweiser and Blue WKD... bad move.
thing you ate::	cheese & onion walkers.
time you showered::	this morning.
time you smiled::	I'm smiling now.
time you laughed::	5 minutes ago.
person you hugged::	Dad.
person you talked to online::	Ashley or Britt.
person you talked to on the phone::	Ummm..Nan.
Do You?
Smoke?:	Yes.
Do drugs?:	Nope. Other than fags and drink.
Drink?:	...not at all. hides copious amounts of empty bottles littered on scanner
Have sex?:	I wish! I rp gay BDSM...
Sleep with stuffed animals?:	All of my Care Bears.
Have a dream that keeps coming back?:	Yes.
Play an instrument?:	I can play guitar sorta.
Believe there is life on other planets?:	Maybe. Who cares?
Read the newspaper?:	Nope.
Believe in miracles?:	Nope.
Consider yourself tolerant?:	Mostly.
Consider police a friend or foe?:	Both, depending on the situation. Saving ye from death = yay! Being a pain say, outside gigs - nay!
Like the taste of alchohol?:	Some. Not really, but I down it anyway.
Believe in astrology?:	No.
Believe in magic?:	HARRY FUCKIN' POTTER- OF COURSE. Accio hot emo boy!
Go to church?:	never.
Have any secrets?:	the odd one. or two.
Have any pets?:	2 cats; coco and sherbert. 2 fish, ariel and aurora.
Go or plan to attened college?:	I do, I do. Well, I plan to.
Talk to strangers?:	Yessum.
Have any piercings?:	Ears and nose..need to get my lip re-done, and then done again, i.e. snakebites.
Have any tattoos?:	I wish. Currently trying to convince mother that I NEED one.
Hate yourself?:	Oh I have been known to.
Wish on stars?:	Nope.
Like your handwriting?:	If I concentrate.
Believe in witches?:	Bellatrix =)
Believe in ghosts?:	Nah.
Believe in santa?:	YES.
Believe in the easter bunny?:	uh, duh, he's my dad. or ya nan. who knows.
Believe in the tooth fairy?:	nah lad.
Sing in the shower?:	yeh lad.
End Time::	03:01
Take this survey \| Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d

Basics
.: x name- Rae
.: x height- 5'3-4ish.
.: x hair color- Black.
.: x real hair color- Brown.
.: x eye color- Blue/grey.
.: x birthday- 21/09/1990
.: x age- 15
.: x grade-year- year 10

Favorites
.: x drink- Cherry Coke or Apple Tango
.: x ice cream flavor- Strawberry
.: x smell- Chanel Chance or No5.
.: x sport- um...wtf. shut up.
.: x channel- um? scuzz. or...gems tv. or...sky 1. or...something.
.: x celebrity- bob bryar..he's a celebrity, yes?
.: x memory- I...I have many. Cant possibly choose.
.: x candy- Sherbert
.: x show- God...um...The OC? CSI & anything of that variety- law crap.
.: x animal- cat, big or small.

This or that
.: x roses or daisies- roses.
.: x cell phone or AIM- AIM pls.
.: x mall or movies- mall..and movies. both. innit.
.: x tv or computer- computer
.: x cat or dog- cat.
.: x rock or rap- rock.
.: x water or milk- water.
.: x shorts or pants- pants.
.: x dinner and a movie or walk on the beach- walk on the beach...
.: x blue or pink- pink
.: x color or black and white- black & white.
.: x friends or family- nooo.
.: x baseball or basketball- neither,
.: x coke or pepsi- coke
.: x bright or dark- bright!
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-->Random

.: x Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. Write down what it says: 'Trivium have announced that they will begin working on a new album in 2006, the much-anticipated follow up to this years, 'Ascendancy'.
.: x What is the last thing you watched on TV? Some random thing about screen kisses.
.: x Without looking, guess what time it is: 3:30
.: x Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 3:13
.: x With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? TV and cat.
.: x When did you last step outside? To have a fag a few hours ago.
.: x What were you doing before you came to this website [started this survey]: being bored crapless.
.: x What are you wearing?: blue pjs with cherries & watermelon on.
.: x Did you dream last night? I don't think so.
.: x When did you last laugh? I laugh a lot...
.: x What is on the walls of the room you are in? Christmas cards...the paper rose maeve made in like, the beginning of year 9. Old lettets. Photos. Mine and Fizzy's art...christmas decs.
.: x Seen anything weird lately? Not that I can think of... oh yeah, those new velour trackies that look like carpet!
.: x What do you think of this quiz? it's a bit...average.
.: x What is the last film you saw?
.: x If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? Mikey back off his...girl-kinda-shaped thing? He's slash writer's property goddamit!
.: x Tell me something about you that I don't know: I'm gay.
.: x If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? I dunno..kill...anchovies.
.: x Do you like to dance? Yes.
.: x George Bush: Get over it. So he's gonna masacre his own country, save an american by taking one into your safe none-american home, be happy.
.: x Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Ella or Sophia.
.: x Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Noah... maybe.
.: x Would you ever consider living abroad? Sure ^_^
.: x What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates? Fuck, you have good hair for a dead woman. Or something. Maybe, 'you'll be glad to know that gay sex is a favourite hobbie of many of Heaven's inhabitants.

20x20surgery @ 2006-01-01T01:49:00

2006-01-01T02:02:29Z

I didnt doo much for new yearsa but it was opkay because I'm drunk a bit and i rang me nan which is always good like innit and this year was good so im happy.

Highlights
1) All you people I met this year!! I love you, I fucking love you! <333333
2) GREENDAY- best gig I've ever been too. So the drinks were warm and I lost £100, still couldn't have asked for a better start to summer!
3) All the other gigs- even if the bands were crap or my gig companions were feeling emo, gigs are fucking boss.
4) First kiss..second kiss..kisses. I like kisses. Yaye.
5) COCO! Sweeeetest kitten you could imagine, and an excellent Christmas present!
6) MCR Tour- you know, cos I actually liked MCR at the time, break through!!
7) Um...travelling, okay, I haven't exactly travelled to foreign countries and beyond but I have grown to the adore the humble train and Croydon!
8) Um...stuff, you know stuff, we all love stuff!

Bad things!
1) This smoking lark I've got myself into, wtf mate? I should not haveta sneak out at 1:30 in the morning for a quick fag! Bad Rae. I'll quit. There's 6 more left in my current pack and then no more!
2) Fizzy leaving Caldies- a bad time for all involved, I feel. <3 WE STILL LOVE FIZZY.
3) Other stuff.. I dont remember.

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE I LOVE, OR HATE, OR KINDA...DONT REALLY..KNOW.HAVE A GOOD YEAR, GOOD LUCK AND SUCH LIKE.

okay, more budqiewer for ,me!

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